Whatever The Weather

Posted on October 24, 2017 by Jen Eden under Life, Mental Health, Personal

The last few weeks have been a bit of a blur.

We’ve gained a family member in the shape of the most beautiful springer spaniel puppy; I’ve been more poorly than I’ve been in a very, very long time; my less than lovely anxiety beastie has been going a bit haywire, causing me all sorts of exciting issues when it comes to, you know, functioning; an work has been busy, busy, busy and I’m starting to come to know more of the challenges of my new role.

I’m not going to lie, some days have been really, really difficult. Some days it has felt like it is only my skin holding me together. I have felt lost and vulnerable and scared and wondered what on Earth I am going to do.

And then I realise: I’m already doing it.

Difficult though it can be I am doing it. I am getting up every day and, even when I feel anxious and panicky, I am living my life. Even though my proud streak makes me delay longer than I should, I am asking for help when I need it. And through all the hard, horrible, dim, grey days, there is always a little sunshine. There is my wonderful husband who knows just when to hold me quietly and just when to distract me and make me laugh; there is our gorgeous puppy who, even though she can be mischievous and is SUCH hard work, greets us every day with complete adoration and has brought even more love, fun and laughter into our lives; there my fabulous friends, who are always there with a kind word and a hug; there are my incredible colleagues, who are beyond supportive and make my job a joy even on the crappy days; and all my amazing family, whose love, support, wisdom, and understanding is abundant and invaluable.

So this half term week, as I balance rest and relaxation with puppy training and quality time with hubby, I will keep finding that sunshine. I urge you to do the same.

Even the tiniest glimmer is still a light in the dark and I’ve never known a star shine alone.

Here are just a few of my sunshiny stars:

While The Wind Howls

Posted on September 10, 2017 by Jen Eden under Life

Outside the window, rain pummels and thunder rumbles. But in here it is warm and dry and quiet. An autumn medley of our favourite tunes plays softly through the house, and the smell of baking pies envelopes us in mouth-watering warmth. The world seems to settle. Our cosy home is filled with memories and promises; the bricks and mortar we bought have slowly taken on something of ourselves.

With the leaves turning down the street, our door closed against the storm, the tastes and smells of autumn bubbling in the oven, and the music of our happiest times playing through every room, it finally begins to go quiet behind my eyes. The comfort I’ve been missing in my busy days settles over my shoulders and across my brow. In this moment of peace, I am overwhelmed by my blessings and I see the depth of joy in my life.

For some it is adventure in the great wide somewhere that calls and lifts them. To escape to the new and the beauty of the unknown. But for me the greatest adventure has always been in this: in coming home. I cannot help but wonder that in the vastness of the universe, on this beautiful jewel of a planet, floating amongst the stars, there is a place that is so inherently me that it brings silent solace to the chaos of my busy human mind. As if, while the wind howled outside my door, the universe leaned in, wrapped a bubble of quiet warmth around me and whispered ‘this is for you’.

Summer Highlights

Posted on August 30, 2014 by Jen Eden under Life, Personal

It’s that time already. Summer is drawing to a close, it’s time to head back to school, but before we do that I though I’d share some of the loveliness that has filled my summer this year…

We had a fab visit from my oh so lovely sister in-law who had the honour of being the first guest to stay in our new house. We enjoyed the sunshine with walks and ice cream and BBQs. Lovely.

We had the nicest day and night out in Stratford celebrating our first wedding anniversary (eek! A whole year!) followed by…

…a wonderful week in and around Bath (read Baaaaarth!) with all my lovely in-laws. Lots of exploring local landmarks and touring the National Trust tea rooms!

Then there was the gathering of the clan at the traction engine rally. This was in honour of my amazing Gran, who unfortunately was too poorly to be there with us. So we mooched around on her behalf, drank cider, enjoyed the dodge’ems and the merry-go-round, and sat round a log fire late into the night. I absolutely adore my fabulous family. 🙂

We squeezed in a fab night out at Manchester’s Albert Hall to see Beirut. Boy can those guys play!!! Amazing music, amazing atmosphere and a great little venue.

I had a longer-than-usual visit from my beautiful bestie Rachel, which unfortunately I didn’t take many picture of because we we’re too busy acting like five year olds. However we did document our baking disaster (above). I’m sure you’ll agree that our honeycomb free-from brownies look delicious in their raw state…and not so much once they had been baked into something that, quite frankly, you could build bridges out of. It was that solid. Note to self; do NOT put honeycomb in brownies. It doesn’t work.

We did a bit of demolition on the outside of our house…

And a bit of building too…

And now it’s starting to look quite pretty! We just need a new path, a rebuild front step, and some foliage in pots and hey presto, we’ll be done. It’s very satisfying seeing these little areas come together.

This week, just to finish off, I taught my first ever English classes! Super scary but went fairly well I think, and all good practice for my brand shiny new job as an English HLTA and mentor. Which I start next week. And am VERY nervous about. And excited about. And not really sure what I’m doing about. However I know I am going to be working with an amazing and lovely team of people who I can run crying and screaming to when it all gets a bit much. (Fingers crossed for not much on the crying and screaming front though!).

I’m now just enjoying the last couple of lazy days before the mayhem of a new term begins. Although to be honest I’m quite looking forward it. I always was an autumn girl…

My Life Right Now

Posted on July 24, 2014 by Jen Eden under Home

Sooooo it appears I have been neglecting you…

My poor little blog has had next to no attention for too long. But I have a perfectly valid excuse (or ten)! You may remember this post? You know, the one where we GOT OUR OWN HOUSE!! Well it turns out that moving house, and then all the unpacking and building of furniture, and the ‘oh look the boiler appears to be leaking, we should probably get someone to fix that’ fun, and the deciding which rooms to decorate, and how to decorate, and then the whole lack of internet thing, means that the blog has had to take a bit of a back seat. Which I think is fair enough really.

But now the internet is back, most of the boxes are unpacked and we are slowly getting to the really fun bits of choosing wallpapers and paints and furnishings, I decided it was time to share a bit of our home with you. So here are just a few pictures of our house right now, and I can’t wait to share more as we start to make this lovely space our own.

Our lovely red door!

One of the very first things we did was get rid of the hideous plastic blind (that didn’t work and didn’t fit the window) in the lounge and replace it with pretty curtains. I love the double track which means if we want a bit of privacy, as the window looks straight onto the street, but still want light we can just draw our white curtains and leave the heavier red ones open! Perfect.

Our lovely little dining room. I’m so excited about this space and all the possibilities it brings. I can’t wait to start having dinner parties in here! (‘Cause you know I’m that sophisticated…)

Our little kitchen. You can’t tell from the pictures but this lovely little space is, unfortunately, very tired and a bit broken in places. It’s also very very humid in here! We will probably look at replacing the whole thing at some point but that has to wait way down at the bottom of the to-do list because…you know…we bought a house…and have no money. So time to start saving again!

So that’s the ground floor! The first floor is slightly less organised and unpacked so I’ll post some pictures when it’s a little more presentable. Thanks for letting me share, I hope everyone is enjoying the lovely summer weather! 🙂

Home Sweet Home

Posted on June 29, 2014 by Jen Eden under Life, Personal

This week something epic happened.

We bought a house.

Or rather we finished the long process of buying a house.

And moved in.

So for the first time in our lives, and after six years of working and waiting and saving, we now live in a house that is OURS. Not our parent’s, not our friend’s, not rented from a landlord, but actually properly ours.

It has been a VERY long time coming but I’ll tell you something…it was worth every second of waiting and every penny saved. It is the MOST amazing feeling to go home to a house we know is ours, and to be able to start making it into our perfect little home.

Something else that has to be said at this point is that we absolutely could not have done it alone. We are so very blessed to have the support of our amazing families and we quite literally would not be here if it wasn’t for them. They’ve given us places to live so we could save some pennies rather than have to pay enormous amounts of rent, they’ve stored our stuff, (a lot of it. For years.) They’ve lent us money, they’ve given us money, they’ve encouraged and supported us, and celebrated with us each time we got closer. They’ve helped us move, they’ve cleaned and built furniture and brought food and been generally the most fantastic group of people we know. So from the bottom of our hearts THANK YOU and we love you more than you know.

Thank you also to my wonderful hubby, who has also been incredible every step of the way and has kept me calm when it’s been stressful. Thank you for wanting to share this wonderful life with me and for everything you do to make it so fabulous and happy.

Now I’m super excited about getting stuck into lots of projects to make our home sweet home even better!

Wednesday Too…

Posted on May 14, 2014 by Jen Eden under Personal

So in an attempt to organise myself and keep on top of the housework as we prepare to move, I drew up a little weekly chart to remind me to do certain things on certain days. You know the type, Monday- clean kitchen, Tuesday – clean bathroom etc…

Today I got home from work and noticed that hubby has drawn up his own chart…

The Best Sort of Busy

Posted on April 27, 2014 by Jen Eden under Personal

Well the chaos has definitely been thriving over here the last few weeks, which as you may have noticed means my lovely little corner of the blogosphere has been rather quiet.

So I thought I’d give you a little insight into my current busyness, just to reassure you I’m still here…

Buying our first house is well underway now, it’s very exciting and scary and expensive! We can’t wait for it all to go through and finally have a home of our own to play with. What do you think of the first page of our mood board book?

Work has been busy busy busy, filled with lots of ups and downs and feeling uncertain. It’s been tough but I think things are working themselves out. The Easter holidays was going to be the time to plan lots of lovely blog things but I was too poorly the first week to do much other than sleep, which inevitably then meant the second week was filled up with seeing friends and cleaning the house! Hence all the ad hoc blogging and the quietness.

I’ve been on a bit of a book series binge over the lat few weeks having read the entire Mortal Instruments series, the Mistborn Trilogy, the first two books of the Stormlight Archive and now onto the third. I am inhaling books. And I love it!

I’ve made a start on another page in my art journal, which I’ll share when it’s done, and made a bit of jewellery as well…

Lovely leaf earrings…

…and a little lightbulb necklace!

So life is currently filled with the best sort of busy and I’m keeping track of it all through my #100happydays posts on Facebook. When I reach the end of the hundred days I think I’ll do a blog post showing all of them together.

I hope all your days are happy and busy as well. 🙂

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